July went by too fast if you ask me. One moment it’s here and the next thing I know it’s my best friend’s birthday. What happened?
The month went by so fast in fact, that I have now just realized that it’s been a few weeks since I’ve posted. This was more due to a situation that brought up all the stress I’ve been keeping under the surface and sent me into a two-week anxiety attack mode where I was breaking down just about every day.
I’ve never experienced anxiety of that level before, and I’d really like to never have to again.
I realized the reason I broke down was because I let Satan get to me with the situation at home. I didn’t keep my faith strong enough and kept worrying that the problem would never be solved instead of just giving it to God and relying on Him. I was weak, but after much prayer and talking with God, I’m leaning more on Him, which is exactly what I’m supposed to do as a child of God. He wants us to relinquish control to Him and let Him work to fight the spiritual battle.
That’s not to say that I’m not waking up anxious or have little moments of worry through the day, but I’m learning that as soon as those thoughts come, I need to call on Jesus and let Him bind Satan and his lies. I’m a work in progress, and I will keep progressing until the day I die or when Jesus comes back (whichever happens first).
In other news, my book has been out for a month now and last week I had an interview with the local newspaper about it. It even made front page! I was definitely not expecting that. But I’m very grateful that God is using people to stir up some community interest. Speaking of, I’m doing a book signing at the library’s Summer Social tonight and I’m a little nervous, but definitley more excited.
With all that going on, it’s no wonder that July flew by. The only part that stinks is that I only have this month to relax before school starts up again, which means I only have a couple weeks before I have to start getting myself into “study-mode” again.
Oh well, I’m thankful that I’ve got the opportunity to go to school in the first place. And that by this time next year, I’ll be done. For real.
How was your July?