November Playlist

Well somehow we are on the last day of November and I’m still thinking it’s the beginning of October.  Weird, right?  Overall this was a good month.  The hiring process at my new job took its time, but I’m happy to say I have a seasonal part-time job now, which I’m hoping to stay at after the holiday season is over… because I really like where I work now.  My mom’s birthday passed and I’ve come to realize that I really enjoy making birthday cards rather than just buying them.

In other news, both my Giants and Bills lost yesterday, but the Patriots lost too so that makes up for it! (Kind of.)

And now I present my first ever monthly playlist for November (and they’re in no particular order).

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Santa Cruz -The Downtown Fiction 

At the most random times I have found myself singing this song.  I’ll be drying my hair or making my bed and just start singing this one.  It’s pretty catchy in the non-typical catchy way.  I think it might be because I first saw The Downtown Fiction in November of 2009 and it brought back those memories seeing how far the boys have come.  This song, and the band, are worth a looking into if you’re on the lookout for new music.

Everything I Do (I Do It For You) – Bryan Adams

An oldie but a goodie.  This song has been a special one to me for my whole life as it’s mine and my mom’s song – our song.  She told me long ago how she used to dance in the kitchen to this song with me as an infant and singing the lyrics to me.  So whenever I hear this song I think of my mom, even if she’s right in the next room.  My best memory of this song with her is when we got to see Bryan Adams in person during an acoustic show and he performed this song as the encore.  I was waiting for this song the entire show, so he really did save the best for last!

Flawless – MercyMe

I don’t know why I hadn’t heard this song before until just a week or two ago, but it has quickly become one of my favorites and this is another song I find myself singing at random moments.  And the music video is amazing for it, I love the concept and it honestly brings tears to my eyes.

Same Old Love – Selena Gomez

Definitely my top favorite from her new album.  I loved this song as soon as I first heard it because I can see how many people can relate to it (I know of a few) and it’s a catchy song.

What Faith Can Do – Kutless

Another song that can bring tears to my eyes, especially with some personal things I have going on.  This is definitely a top track off my worship playlist.  It’s encouraging and uplifting so if you’re ever having a bad day, just listen to this song.

Always Enough – Casting Crowns

Another uplifting song that has brought tears to my eyes a few times this month.  There are just days when worship songs will hit you right in the feels and you’ll bawl like a baby for each one.  I had one of those days and apart from the Kutless song, this one refreshed those tears and just reminded me how how amazing God is.

Who Am I – Casting Crowns

My uncle first shared this song with me on Facebook years ago and I had only listened to it a handful of times.  But after these past few weeks I’ve begun to listen to it regularly and know and love the lyrics to this song.

Not This Year – Aly & AJ

One of my favorite songs to listen to around Christmas time… or even off-season.  Yes, it’s not really a happy Christmas song, but it’s a relatable one.  Sometimes you just don’t feel in the mood and that’s basically what this song is.  I’m sure we’ve all felt the Not This Year vibe, but I even love this song when I am in the Christmas spirit because… I just love the song, okay?

What Do You Mean – Justin Beiber

I hate to admit it, but this kid knows how to make a catchy tune.  I hear it a lot on the radio (and my Spotify playlist) and can’t help but sing to it when it’s on.  Heck, even when it’s not on the song jumps into my head and I’m singing it.  I may not like Bieber as a person, but I respect his talent and the good songs he throws out there.

O Holy Night – MercyMe

Since I’m already listening to Christmas music, I cannot leave this rendition of the classic O Holy Night out.  It is one of my favorite versions of it, next to Lea Michele’s off the Glee soundtrack.  Of course, I have about five or six different artists singing this song in my iTunes library and each one just has a different mood to it that I enjoy at different times.  Still, I think this one is my top favorite.

So, that is it.  My top tracks from my playlist this month.  I can almost guarantee that a majority of next month’s will be different Christmas songs, but we’ll see what happens I guess.

Here’s to a happy December for everyone!

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Being Grateful

I think we already know there is a difference for being thankful and being grateful.  Sure, the words mean the same thing, but I know that when I say I’m thankful for something it doesn’t feel as meaningful as when I say I’m grateful for something, or someone.

I don’t know, it might just be me who feels that the words are different.

To start off, I’m grateful that I have finally gotten a job.  It’s a seasonal job in retail, but after one day I love it.  I know I just spent the last 5-6 years getting a Bachelor’s Degree, but I’m happy to have a job.  And who says I couldn’t continue working in retail and do freelance video work?  You never know what will happen.

Speaking of the fact I’ve finally gotten a job, which I really hope leads to a regular position, I’m grateful for my mom for being so great since my graduation about me not having a job.  She knew I was trying and contented to encourage and motivate me to keep looking and not give up.  I’m just very grateful that she has been amazing through this whole ordeal and that when I got discouraged, she lifted me up and told me that God has it and for me not to worry about what anyone else was saying about my job-hunting struggle.

There are times that I’m in a bind and sometimes my mom can’t always be the one to help me, and I’m grateful that God has blessed me with a dad who is always there for me.  I might not see my dad every day, but I can’t doubt that he loves me and would do anything for me.  I really love how excited my dad gets during the Giants games and it was something I really missed this week since the G-men were on bye week.

And I’ll end this post with a music video for a bit of inspiration on this fine Monday morning.

I heard this song on the radio for the first time the other day (that’s how often I listen to the radio) and immediately fell in love with it.  Then this morning I watched the music video and… it hit me hard.  Because out of all the things I’m grateful for, I’m the most grateful for Jesus dying on the cross so that we could be saved.

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A Grateful Heart with Ember Grey

Tabby is my Name, Videos are my Game

Have I ever mentioned I like to produce videos?

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It’s no secret to anyone who knows me, even if only by reading this blog, that I love producing videos.  What you might not know is that I had no intentions of going into the video production field of work.  Unless you’re someone from my personal life who knows me and stalks my blog…

I’m talking to you Mom (love you!).

The story behind how video production became my passion is known to few.  It all began with a memorial video I made for my shop class a year after we graduated.  I was testing out iMovie on my MacBook for the first time and just began to throw in some pictures and video clips from our four years of nonsense fun.  I had so much fun putting that video together that I wanted to do more.  So I did.

The day that I had posted my CADD Memories video, my aunt and uncle’s dog died.  He was a big part of their family, so that week I gathered all the video clips and photos of him and made a tribute video for my aunt, uncle and cousin to remember their dog.  It was after this video that people told me I had a talent for doing this sort of thing, but I didn’t really think much of it… I was just throwing things together after all.  Plus, looking back at those videos now I can see how much I have improved in my editing skills because I definitely was a beginner then.

From there I made a few music videos and skits with my best friend on a YouTube channel we called TV Prodorktions.  Some of the videos I’ve since deleted, but a few of my favorites were left up so the two of us can go back and watch them whenever.  My all-time favorite video on that channel is our Eye of the Tiger music video we did during our first college spring break when it was 75º outside… in March.

That summer (which was the summer of 2010) I was at one of my church’s softball games and I was taking pictures of the team when I decided to switch my Fujifilm FinePix camera to video mode and record the team playing.  I went home that night and uploaded my footage and created a short highlight reel of the team’s game.  A few months later, when my friends were playing flag football, they remembered that softball video and said I should go and film them playing football.

And guess what I’ve been doing the past five years?

That November was the birth of Natural Chance Productions because I knew I needed a more professional name to produce video content under than TV Prodorktions.  After that first season of flag football I also produced videos for pickup basketball games, three different softball teams and a local BMX track.  It was then that I realized this was something I could see myself doing for years to come and loving every second of it.  No longer did I want to be a writer/librarian… I wanted to make videos.

Since transferring schools and changing my major to Communication/Video Production I have gained a lot more knowledge in creating video content in different areas (news, film, promotional videos, etc.).  It led me into working for the school’s media center where I learned about studio and event tapings and I could not be more grateful for that experience.  I’ve also made friends who share a love for creating videos – and let me tell you, having friends who share your passions is the greatest.

It’s weird to think back like this and realize that I fell into this passion because of a class video I made for fun.  I had no idea that by making that video I would find something I truly love doing.

I’m just thankful to God for this talent and passion I have for this field (even though my first videos are, well, not good).  But I’m more thankful that I found it at the age where I was already in college and could switch schools and majors to learn more about the area and harness my skills.

I mean, I still have a lot to learn, but I’m clearly not in the same spot I was six years ago.

By the way, happy birthday Natural Chance Productions!

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I Need a Break…

No worries friends, I’m not talking about blogging.  In fact, blogging is something I need to do a little more of to unload the thoughts in my head when they come about (and boy, are they crowding my brain).

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I’m talking a minor social media break.  With all this political and war controversy going on I feel like I’m going mad.  I can see both perspectives of those who want to let the refugees in and of those who think we shouldn’t.  Then there’s the Presidential campaign… and that’s just a toss up.  I mean, I know who I don’t want in office, but as far as who I’ll be voting for… I have no idea.

The thing is, all these issues are causing strife on my Facebook news feed, and surprisingly my Twitter feed.  People are ranting and bashing those who don’t agree with their thoughts, and though I have my own thoughts as to what to say to some of them, I have learned (the hard way) that it’s often best to not say anything.  It’s no use if I end up getting a hot head over a useless argument and make a jerk of myself.

I find myself unable to keep my thoughts away from the issues going on in the world right now – because that’s all I’m seeing on my feeds.  As someone who worries more than the average person, that’s not good for my state of mind.  It’s also not showing and good faith in God.  It’s the thing I struggle with the most… casting my anxieties away to Him.  I’m working on it, but I still have a way to go.

This is why I need to get off Facebook for a few days, and possibly Twitter (but I wouldn’t guarantee that).  Purposely exposing myself to these posts is just me asking for my anxiety to heighten and lead to an anxiety attack.  I know that isn’t going to make the issue go away, but it gives me some time to let the panic rising in me to die down as I put my focus and faith in God and know that no matter what happens, I’m in His hands (as well as my family and friends).

So if any of my friends and family who came to this post from Facebook, this is me telling you I will not be active for a few days.  If you do happen to see any posts from me, it’s because I scheduled something to go up through Hootsuite so that I do not have to log into my account.

It’s going to be a challenge for me, not going on Facebook.  I mean, it’s right there on my phone and it’s a habit to go into it.  But it’s only for a few days, until (hopefully) my news feed calms down a bit.  Even if it isn’t, I’m going to make sure that I’m calm about the subject before I go back into my account directly.

As far as Twitter and Instagram goes, I really follow way too many accounts on both and end up missing half of the things in my feeds to worry about them.  Even so, I really haven’t been too active on either in the last two days.

And blogging, well, that’s going to go as usual – I’ll post as the topics come and I’m hoping to write up and schedule a few in the next day or two.  So again, this is not a blogging break, it’s a news feed break to clear my head and keep myself from worrying so much.

I really need some of the Lord’s strength for this.

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currently // november

I feel like I say this every month, but how is it November already?  At first it seemed like 2015 was going to be the year that took it’s sweet time, then somewhere around June it just hit fast forward and now we’re halfway through November.

Meaning we only have a month and a half until 2016.


Oh well, I can’t do anything about it other than enjoy the rest of the year.  So I guess now is as good a time as any to share what’s been going on currently.

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Loving // editing my football videos.  I just love going through all the footage and replaying those awesome moments that happened during the game.  And I have to say I love when I get to make the clips go in slow motion with the songs… it just looks awesome!

Excited // for Thanksgiving.  We’ve already got some of the food for the side stuff and I can’t wait to cook it with my mom and eat it all for the rest of that week.

Hoping // that this mild fall weather will continue. Heck, I’m hoping that this winter will be mild for once instead of freezing cold.

Drinking // still on that coffee/tea kick…

Wearing // mostly hoodies and sweatpants to keep warm.

Watching // my mom and I are still hooked on Grandfathered and we recently started watching Last Man Standing with Tim Allen… so good!

Listening // a bit of everything lately.  I’m talking late 70s Air Supply up to new releases this year, and a variety of genres.  Basically anything but rap… or opera (because who listens to that?)

What are you currently up to?

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It’s been eight years since I’ve seen you…

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Dear Nanni,

I’m already tearing up typing this because it’s been just over eight years since I’ve seen you.  It feels like it’s been much longer than eight years though.  So much has happened since you left us.

You know by now that Poppy and (great) uncle Steve have left us as well.  And Darcy and aunt Matilda.  I honestly hope they’re all with you and you’re enjoying their company now.  On that note, I hope you’re enjoying the grandchildren that you never got to meet on earth.  Give them mine and my mom’s love.

I graduated college in May this year.  It took me six years because I transferred twice and changed majors, but I did it.  I’m still trying to find a job in my field, but I know something will come along in God’s timing.  Speaking of college, mom got her Bachelor’s Degree in 2011.  You’d be proud of her; I know I am.

You have a handful more great-grandchildren now.  I’m not quite sure how many have been born since 2007, but there’s been a lot.  Probably at least one a year since you died, not including this year though.  I didn’t get any new cousins this year.  And I can tell you right now you won’t get great-grandchildren from me anytime soon.  I’m not ready for a family life yet, since I just graduated and all.

I’m still single, but I’m okay with it.  I’ve been more focused on college and now my career.  And of course I’m always trying to grow in God’s love.  I know for sure that if I get married I want to be married to a strong Christian man like you had with Poppy.

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I really miss you Nanni.  I miss going down to your place when I was home sick from school and you would give me crackers with butter and diet root beer in a glass bottle.  I miss watching The Price is Right with you… I can’t watch that show since you passed.  What I miss most though is that when I watched TV with you I’d sit next to you on your recliner and as I got older and bigger you told me my big butt could barely fit anymore.

I also miss how you used to mix me up with my mom and call me by her name.  That was funny.

Mom really misses you too.  She thinks about you a lot and she doesn’t want me to have the same regrets she does when she leaves me (which I really hope isn’t for like, 50 years at least).  I think everyone regrets something when a person passes away though, ’cause it’s only then when you think about all the things you could’ve done with or for that person.  Or you think of some of the bad times you had with them and regret those.

The morning you passed I started to regret the times I chose going to my other grandmother’s place instead of yours.  I know it’s a silly thing to regret because I did go to your house a lot – I think it was an even split between you and grandma.  But that day though I had just wished I spent more time with you than I did.  But I know you had all my cousins to spent time with as well; I couldn’t be a Nanni-hog.

Now that I think about it, I wish I had made applesauce cookies with you at least once while you were here.  My mom and everyone older than me says they were amazing cookies.  I can’t remember if I’ve ever had them or not.  Mom has your recipe for them, so at least that can live on.

I really hope you’re doing well Nanni.  I can’t stress how much we all miss you down here.  Give everyone else up there my love and I really wish you were here for me to give you a big hug.

I love you Nanni.

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Contentment (A Grateful Heart)

Good morning everyone!  I hope you’re day is going great so far, I know mine is.  I’ve already gotten a few things done around the house (including organizing my closet because it was a wreck!) and I’m still going.  It’s not even noon yet!

I’m taking today to be grateful for the simple things in my life, and I’ll explain why after the list.

I’m Grateful for…
  • This home I live in and the fact I have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in at night.
  • The food in this home.  It might not be gourmet food and home-cooked meals every night, but I’m always fed.
  • The things I do have.  Honestly, I do have more than some people.  Just because some of my stuff (electronics) might act up once in a while… I still have those things when others don’t.
  • Clothes.  I’m thankful that I have clothes to wear each day.
  • My people.  I am grateful for and love every single person who has ever stepped into my life.  They are beautiful people and we might not always see eye-to-eye, but I can’t imagine a life without them and their existence.
  • The weather.  New England has had some awesome weather lately, and I’m loving it.
  • The honey-crisp apples my mom bought and that they were on sale!

Why so grateful, you ask?

No, not because Thanksgiving is this month… though I’m thankful for that too.  I mean, family, food and football?  Who isn’t thankful for that?

Anyway, I follow Ember Grey’s blog and she does a Grateful Heart link-up regularly and I think it’s a great one to join.  We all have something to be grateful for, even in hard times.  I’ve personally had some ups and downs lately, but I’m pushing those bad feelings aside and focusing on the good.  I know that God has a plan for my life and He’s laying down the path for me.  I also came across a verse today that really hit my heart and convicted me:

“Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.” – Philippians 4:11-12

I knew this was God telling me to be content with where I am in life right now.  I’ve been a little bitter about the fact I have not found a job in my field of choice yet and that everyone else has seemed to gotten one.  I was just talking with my mom last night and realized that I need to be happy with whatever job I end up with.  A job that isn’t in my field could possibly be God’s plan for me.  I could meet someone who is looking for a freelancer (which is something I really want to get off the ground).  Or He might be setting me up to move to a new location and doesn’t want me in a job up here only to leave after a few months.

The thing is, I don’t know what God’s plans are for me, but I trust Him.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” – Proverbs 3:5-6

Of course, being bitter about where I am right now isn’t going to help me.  It’s only going to hinder me.  While I’m down here griping about how my degree is going to be a waste God’s just sitting up there like, “Get with the program Tabitha!”  I need to be content where I am and thankful for what I have now before God will carry out the next step in His plan for me.  

If I can’t be thankful for where I am now, how can I expect God to bring me to the place I truly want to be?

Not that that’s a reason to be content with where I am.  Nothing will happen until I’m truly content… so content that I wouldn’t care whether God wants me where I wanted to be or not.

I just need to get better at knowing that God doesn’t follow my timetable.  He follows His timetable.  He’s just waiting for me to get my butt into gear and be ready for His plan.

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Grateful Heart w/ Ember Grey

Periscope Bug!

I finally took the plunge the other day and finally did a broadcast on Periscope.

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I was actually quite nervous for my first one – an intro for the Bloggers Get Social #stopdropscope prompt as a part of their Instagram challenge.  I mean, I’ve done videos before for YouTube on a regular basis, but there was something about doing it live that was weird.  It was probably the fact I couldn’t edit out any mistakes in my speech or the long pauses I tend to take when talking to a camera.

In any case, I’ve done two more since that previous one and I plan to do more.  I don’t know what they’ll be about, but I’ve got the Periscope bug and no one can stop me!

I’ve actually looked into Blab, another live broadcasting site and I’ve heard of Meerkat.  I think I might give each of those a try and see which one I like the best and will probably use the most.  For now though, I’m going to use Periscope and keep up with that challenge.

Do you use any of the live broadcasting apps?  Which is your favorite?

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Friday Five: Blogger Love v.37

Good morning everyone!  I hope your Friday is being good to you.  Mine’s going well so far, I’ve actually gotten a lot done… and it’s not even noon yet!

I wish I had been like this yesterday, but I was a mess.  My mood fluctuated so much yesterday that I couldn’t even keep up with it.  But it ended on a good note after I Periscoped for the first time for the Bloggers Get Social community and it was actually fun, even if I had no idea what I was really doing, ha.

Anyway, I hope everyone has a great weekend!  Mine will be full of football… as usual.

Oh, and let’s applaud the 200th post on orangeowldiaries since I gutted it out last year!

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  1. How to become a morning person in 10 easy steps by Thirteen Thoughts.  I’ve recently made the change over, due to the fact my bio-clock was just changing and I got tired earlier and woke up earlier.  But if you need to become one, I suggest you check this out!
  2. 6 Things You Need for a Night In by Anchored to Sunshine.  The work weeks are stressful (so I hear) so it’s important to treat yourself to a night in to relax, but there are some essentials you need to do that…
  3. 5 productive things to do when you don’t have a post planned for the day by Anchored to Sunshine.  Really useful tips for the days you don’t have a post planned, but you still want to work on your blog.
  4. Bible Verses for the Work Week by Just Bee.  We all need a little biblical inspiration to get through the rough work week, don’t we?
  5. How to Deal With Rejection by College Info Geek.  Okay, okay… it’s a podcast.  But a very good one, especially for us college grads struggling to find a job right now.

All the Joys - Blogger Love

So there’s my five favorite posts of the week and I think y’all should go and give them a look.

As always,  don’t forget to check out the host of Blogger Love, Meagan on All The Joys and give her some blogger love as well!

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One Thing I Don’t Regret

Even though we try to avoid them, we can’t help but to have a few regrets in life.  Maybe they’re minor – that compliment you wish you said aloud – or they can be major regrets – not spending enough time with a special person.

We even find ourselves regretting things we had no control over in our past.  You know the saying, “If I had known then what I know now, things would be so much better.”  It’s silly that we have that kind of regret, but we do.

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However, I specifically remember one thing that I was told I’d regret, yet… I don’t.

The spring of 2009 the seniors of my high school were preparing themselves for prom – buying dresses, renting tuxedoes, getting their tickets, asking out dates… you know, prom things.  Of course, there were a few seniors that weren’t nearly as concerned with prom as the rest of the class.

I was one of them.

Prom was never something I’d fantasized about.  So while my best friend was preparing herself for prom she continued to tell me that I’d regret it if I didn’t go.  I might not regret it right away, but down the line I would.  I kept telling her she was wrong, I wouldn’t regret it.  In fact, if three was anything I regretted at the time, it was going to the junior ring dance (or junior prom) the year before.

Going off that experience, which was also my first school dance ever, I knew there was no way I was going to senior prom.  School dances just weren’t my scene, and even the one dance that is pretty much a milestone in high school wasn’t going to change that.  I was adamant about skipping prom in favor of staying home and relaxing, and possibly writing stories of some kind.

Now, my high school prom was six and half years ago and guess what?

I don’t regret not going.

Sure, I might not remember what I did that June night… but it’s better than remembering having a miserable time at senior prom because I didn’t even want to be there in the first place.

But that’s just me.

Did you go to your prom?  If you didn’t, do you regret not going?

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Slang Words I’ll Never Use

Slang words have been around as long as language itself.  Well, I’m not positive on that, but I’d assume it’s true.  We’re always coming up with new words to use in our everyday language, so much so that they do eventually end up in a dictionary.

Seriously… selfie is now an official word in the dictionary.

While there are plenty of slang words I like to use, there are also that are just so ridiculous that, just… why?

These beyond ridiculous slang words and phrases are definitely ones that you’ll never hear (or see) me use.

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  1. Bae – Technically it means ‘before anyone else’ but it just sounds like a shortened version of ‘baby.’  Honestly, it just sounds weird to call someone your bae.
  2. YAASSS – Is it really hard to just shout, “YES!”  Really?
  3. Ill – As in, ‘that’s ill’ when you just mean ‘that’s cool.’  Why can’t we just stick to ‘Dude, that’s sick!’ or ‘That’s wicked Harry!’?
  4. Cray-Cray – Because saying ‘That’s crazy’ is so hard…
  5. YOLO – This can be funny on occasion, but it’s definitely gone overboard in some cases.  Besides, have people just realized that we only have one life to live on earth?
  6. Ratchet – Last I checked, a ratchet was a tool (also known as a socket wrench).
  7. Or nah? – It’s like they just took the ‘t’ out of saying ‘or not?’  You know, “So are we getting pizza or not?”
  8. Slayed – Often used when an artist comes out with a new album and their fans are going, “Slay, Taylor! Slay!”  Another term I cannot get on board with.
  9. On Fleek – In other words, ‘on point.’  But at least saying ‘on point’ isn’t as weird…
  10. Doe – For the people who cannot make the “th” sound apparently….

I know there are a ton more of these slang words that are being thrown out these days, but this list would go on forever if I listed all of them.  These are just ten off the top of the list that I’ll never use.  I don’t even know where they came up with half of these words.

I think more people need to pick up a dictionary… or at least use

Dang whippersnappers!

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